Polpatt 5 years ago
I am feeling so utterly lost and hopeless. I lost my wonderful husband and soulmate a week before our 32nd wedding anniversary, and three weeks before his birthday. He was diagnosed with metatastic renal cell carcinoma in mid February this year, and he died just two months later on 26th April. The disease progressed at a frightening rate and my lovely sporty, handsome husband lost three stones on weight and turned into a frail,old man before our eyes. I have a wonderful supportive family so I am luckier than some people, but despite all they do for me, I feel so alone and lonely. My life seems like a foreign country and each day seems so long. Some days I cannot stop crying and I am thinking that everyone will get tired of these upsets. I know it’s early days, but I feel so out of control.