My partner died from lung, kidney & brain cancer on the 1st July 2018 & this is my first attempt at reaching out to someone as I am not feeling that I am coping very well. I was with him in hospital for 8 or 10 hours every day before he died & I was there at the end with my step daughter.
I had never even seen anyone die before even though I am 67, but I am struggling with memories before his hospital stay & the end.
If I talk to anyone I start to cry (I am crying now) and i feel already that I am becoming a bore to my 2 step daughters & my friends I used to work with.
I am not expecting any answers from anyone out there but the pain is so bad......................I could talk for days!!