lizziebee 1 year ago
I'm new to carer's corner and just having a bad start to the day. My husband was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer and secondary brain metastases in December 2018. He's had chemo/immuno therapy for the last 13 months but the illness is progressing and in December last was given a 6 months prognosis. Due to the brain mets he has virtually lost the use of his left leg and now needs a zimmer frame in the house and a wheelchair. I retired from work to become his full-time carer. On Saturday he had to go to A&E due to a urine problem where it was found that his oxygen levels were low and his is currently in hospital on oxygen having various tests to try and find the root of the urine and oxygen problems. The most obvious things have been ruled out. I think what has upset me today is that it suddenly seems to real and scary. When he comes home we will have to deal with a catheter and possibly oxygen in addition to all of his current disabilities. As a once active man his whole world has shrunk to nothing and he is very depressed, and he doesn't really have any fighting spirit anymore. Sitting at home without him for the fourth morning I have been hit with the truth of what is going to happen and I am feeling very low. Suddenly very alone. Anyone out there who knows how it feels?