Its great to read that your GP is aware of your feelings and is providing you with medication and support to try to help you. It is also good to see that you feel able to reach out for support and to talk about these feelings with appropriate support agencies.
Many people talk to us about how overwhelming their thoughts and feelings can be when they have recently lost a loved one. Grieving is a very natural and individual response to this loss. We have some information about grief and grieving which you can find here: https://www.mariecurie.org.uk/help/support/bereaved-family-friends/dealing-grief/grieving-your-way
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