HannahJG 4 years ago

Hello Gina,

ginasaro 4 years ago

Thank you everyone for your support so far. Today is my first day back to work (I work from home). I have four weeks off for compassionate leave in the end. A bit part of me is not looking forward to normal life again. Especially with another dreaded lock down possibility. I don't really know how I feel. 

The funeral went very well and we were able to have a wake which was very nice. But now I feel a bag of mixed emotions, finding out new things about Dad that I wasn't happy with so it's a mixed bag right now.I have another Force chat tomorrow with a counsellor which i find are helping, just a long time apart. So will see if it lifts everything a bit. 

I think my main struggle going forward will be dealing with how ill he was. I'm worried about having some form of PTSD from it. So I need to focus on resolving the issue before it gets too bad. 

take care all xxx

David 4 years ago

Edited by David 4 years ago

Hi Gina, I am sorry to hear about the loss of your dad. I think the kinds of concerns and worries you have expressed are natural, given everything that has happened. Certainly, feeling apprehensive about the future or even not knowing what you feel, is a normal part of the experience of grief. How have things been for you today back in work?   

It sounds like seeing your dad so unwell was understandably hard and has brought up some difficult emotions. If you have a good relationship with your counsellor and feel comfortable sharing with them, hopefully talking things through might be helpful. Losing a parent is such a difficult experience and while it is good that the funeral went well, it is important to make sure you are taking good care of yourself now. If you find these thoughts or memories are causing distress and you are not able to manage, it is also fine to speak with your GP as well.

While we are not counsellors, the Marie Curie community is certainly a safe space to share whatever you are going through – you are welcome to share as much or as little as you need.

Take care,

David – Support Line Officer