Dots 2 years ago
Hello - 4 years ago we lost out father to cancer. He was the love of my mums life. I didn’t grieve as I should - I kept my feelings inside because the main thing was to make sure that my mum was ok. I put her first. And this summer, my mum was diagnosed with terminal cancer and died with us round her bed around three months after the diagnosis. So now I’m lost. In 40. I didn’t learn to grieve before, but now I must and I don’t know what that looks like. There is work to do when losing both parents. I’m used to worrying about something else, or someone else. I’m terrified of facing my feelings. How does one process this stuff? I just feel numb. My last 4 years have been devoted - in my mind- to thinking if my mother is ok. What happens now?