I lost my wonderful mum at the end of July last year, she had breast cancer in 2014 but received treatment for it and we thought that everything that needed to be done had been and she would be ok. Sadly she became jaundiced at the start of July 2016 and was admitted to hospital but was told the cancer had spread to her liver, bones and lungs and only palliative care was offered. She died less than a month later, she was only 56. I was so close to my mum, and she was helping me to raise my daughter who is now 18 months old - she loved being a grandma and was such a massive support to me. She was my best friend.
I have kept going as best I can in order to look after my daughter, but I miss my mum all the time. It is exhausting just to get out of bed and keep functioning each day. I guess I'm just carrying on waiting for it to get easier, but as my daughter grows up I feel so sad that my mum will never see her again. I wonder when it will get easier.