4 years ago
Edited by Reglois 4 years ago
So sorry I got your name wrong in my first reply. I suppose that now it has all sunk in such an awful stage, take all the help you can get. I resorted to pills which I hate taking, I really do, but took them for 9 months and then weaned myself off, they numbed me out so that I could carry on with looking after my dogs, I had 5 rescues then. Realise now that I did push people away at the beginning to a certain extent, never really meant to and because they didn't know how to cope with me they never came back and in a foreign country and out in the sticks, compatriots are few and far between. Hope family and friends are rallying around you. If you can't tell them to please be patient and put up with you being down and dusty, write it in a little note, put it up on the wall where visible to remind them of who you want to become and for them to please be very patient while you go through this change. Have you a pet?, a little dog?, would you consider a needy rescue, they have been my life savers, something else that needed me to be strong and get out and about because they also needed me. I took on a tiny Yorkshire terrier of 7 months, she had been dumped in a refuge after both of her back legs were broken and left to heal without treatment, one leg needed to be amputated, this was one month after I lost my husband, had to move house, saw my daughter and granddaughter leave the country after a nasty divorce (was all arranged before the death of my husband), little dog really needed me as much as I needed her.
Dreaming Such a nice post, thank you. I have music on constantly, as I need a certain rhythm to be able to control my breathing and not panic. I am on oxygen but it only help keep my organs oxygenated. Have several progressive lung diseases from breathing in toxic fumes from when I worked, no health and safety then !!! husband died of the same thing only his turned into small cell lung cancer, I risk that too, determined to hold out as long as possible as I have two rescue dogs left which includes aforementioned tiny three legged Yorky. they keep me fighting when I want to give up. Their futures are arranged so don't have to worry about them.
A bientôt Sue Sorry written a book again