MAZL 5 years ago
I can understand how you feel. Since my husband died in August 2017 I have had so many what ifs, if onlys and why didn't Is that I feel I could write a book. It is only natural. I have now started some bereavement counselling locally and it is helpful to talk to a totally objective person about things I perhaps would not mention to family and friends . The guilt and the anger of finding oneself in this situation need to surface and be dealt with as does the grieving. Everyone faces it differently and only you know what is the best way for you.