Alone hopeless and helpless

Emilios 3 years ago

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Edited by Emilios 3 years ago

Last yr april I was rushed to hospital after collapsing and had to have an emergency brain tumour operation which went well but then told it was caused by cancer that spread from my lungs which is at stage 4 and terminal. Almost one yr on now I can feel my mental and physical health slowly deteriorating. My mother brother and sister offer me no care or support and my 3 daughters and 6 grandchildren live 300 miles away which makes it very depressing for me only being able to contact them by text and phone I try to act brave for them and pretend I'm doing well which is a lie and in reality I'm torn apart knowing I will probably never get to see them again before I finally go. I'm finding it really hard to go on I'm feeling suicidal and just want to end it all before I get so Ill that I can no longer look after myself.

Brigette 3 years ago

Hello Emilios,

Thank you for reaching out and getting in touch with us. I can hear how difficult things are for you. You have been very brave to share that you have suicidal feelings and I would love to be able to talk about these some more with you. Do you feel able to reach out and contact us on the Support Line? If you could ring us on Freephone 0800 090 2309 I would love to be able to talk to you about how you are feeling and what your concerns are. Or if you would prefer you could email your contact details to me at support@mariecurie.org.uk and we will contact you.

If you feel you are at immediate risk it is ok to speak to your GP or too ring 999 for immediate assistance and support. Having these thoughts and feelings can be scary and overwhelming. Alternatively you many find the information and signposting here very helpful :http://https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/suicidal-feelings/about-suicidal-feelings/

We also have information about the different types of help and support that may be available to you, both now and as things start to change for you.

Looking forward to hearing from you.

Take care,

Brigette - Marie Curie Support Line Officer.