I'm not sure what to write or how to write it but here goes. I lost my grandad on the 30th of October. He was diagnosed with lung cancer in June and started treatment almost straight away. They decided he was going to have a trial drug instead of chemotherapy. Before he started his treatment he seemed fine one minute the next he was really poorly. He ended up having to stay in hospital for quite a while and for my grandparents flat to be changed to suit his needs. After everything had been sorted out he finally came home. 6 days later he passed away unexpectedly. Now I'm constantly struggling, I feel like I can't cope with anything anymore. I was always close with him. I just don't know what to do anymore!