Caroline jcb 4 years ago
Hi all I hope I can share this with you all and ask for your help
5 months ago , after no signs of illness? I was diagnosed with a rare and incurable Cancer Cholangiocarcinoma ... bile duct cancer I’m having chemo as palliative shrink and hold , but prognosis for me is likely short, and I’m dying.
This has been very difficult for me to get my head around but the worst bit is my twin sister ... she lacks sympathy and empathy and constantly keeps making me feel a nuisance for having this. I’ve been trying to plan some nice things and she just keeps coming up with barriers as to why not .. ie loose bowels Everything I say to her to try and understand how I feel ... she just throws it back at me , that I’m wishing she had it not me !!! 🤦🏼♀️🤦🏼♀️
That’s not the case ... of course I wish I did not have it ... but fails to see what I need, how it’s messed with my head and how to help ... it seems all so begrudged. I’m scared and very frightened but she just lives her life almost flaunting what she can do ... and never gives me a thought of how could I do this.
Latest example as I’m due to go to Chelsea football club on Sunday to the last game of the season. I’m a season ticket holder and I’ve not been all season? because I’ve had loose bowels over the last two days she points out, How would I cope with the journey? I said we can take a bucket and a towel and some toilet roll and she said I can’t cope with that I’m not stopping to let you do that perhaps you don’t need to go then because you need to think how having diarrhoea makes me feel... !!!! Again making about her and how she’s reacting!!
Views how to handle please And how to stop feeling like I’m always in the wrong