I lost my dad in July, 11 days after getting married. He was too ill to attend. I now believe he held on for our wedding and then let go.
Dad was diagnosed after no luck with his GP despite his weight loss, marbling on his back and abdominal pain. It took a rheumatologist less than 2 minutes on a physical examination to find a lump and consequently arranged the scans and tests diagnosed my dad had Pancreatic cancer which had already spread to his Liver. He was given 2 months to live, he made one month. His death was painful and full of fear and frustration.
I don't live near my family and we've not been in touch much since dads funeral in August. My wife I feel just thinks I need to move on. I wish I could, but I can't. The occasions that im on my own I pretty much cry my eyes out. I just want to work to escape my feelings. Im so angry with the lack of care dad got, he was written off due to his age and cancer and I was told by medical professionals twice that its a surprise he was still alive on his diagnosis.
My marriage is already rocky because she just resents the magic of the wedding was stolen from us. To be honest my dad was my concern. I dont ever see me getting over my dad. Its his birthday on Thursday he would of been 79. I have no one that I can talk to as my family all seem to be able to move on.