I lost my Dad this July just a few weeks after he diagnosed with terminal cancer. He was 69. My dad had developed multiple sclerosis at age 55. The cancer was a complete shock to us all. A couple of weeks before he died we lost my mum's sister. In fact out of a family of only 7 we have lost 4 in the last 3 years. It is only now that it is sinking in he''s gone. Up to now I have been OK I thought. I feel very low, cry every day. I'm heartbroken as I was close to my dad. Right now I can't see a light at the end of the tunnel. There's only myself and my mum left and I worry about her. I live 200 miles away. I just want to start feeling normal again.