Hi everyone. My name is Ruth. But call me Ruthy.
The reason I have joined Marie Curie's Community is because my dear Grandma is dieing from Secondary Bone Cancer. We've been extremely lucky to have her with us for as long as we have. But I have a gut feeling that end of life may be near.
I hate talking about it, because it's my Grandma. Thinking of a world without her in it, makes me cry, it makes me angry & I don't want to face the thought of it. But, I have to.
I talk to my family about things, I talk to my husband. But, I feel with were I am right now with how sick she is & all of the things she is going through, I just think speaking to an outsider may be more helpful.
My heart is breaking, for her, for my Grandad, for my Mum & for me. (Also the rest of my family) I don't want to grieve now, because if I start grieving now, I feel like I'm giving up on her. But at the same time, if I do not start grieving now, Im worried I will hit rock bottom when the time comes.
Please feel free to join my thread, share your experiences, offer support, etc.