Gorgeousgirl 5 years ago
Edited by Gorgeousgirl 5 years ago
My mum passed away 4 months ago and ever since I’ve just felt empty. I haven’t really felt extremely upset or angry I’ve just felt empty. I thought that it hadn’t really hit me yet that mum has died but it’s been four months. Has anyone else felt like this? It’s almost as if I’ve blocked it out of my thoughts and don’t really think about it. People say that I should be thinking about her all the time and I’m not. Does that make me really insensitive? I feel like I should be missing her so much but I just feel empty. Anyone else felt like this? I’m also 15 and just about to take my GCSEs. I find it really hard to concentrate and just spend most of the time just staring at something thinking about nothing. My mum had a stroke and then I went away for a week on a school trip thinking everything would be fine. Two days after I came back we got told by the doctors that she had secondary cancer and would only have about a week to live so it was all very quick. It was a tremendous shock and I spent her final week with her in the hospital. I went back to school 5 days after her death. School have been ok. They spoke to me once with a group of my friends and said to all of us that they are there if any of us want support. Then another teacher who I know quite well spoke to me and said they had recommended that I have grief support at school but I’ve not heard anything of it. I’m not the kind of person that asks for help so I haven’t diligently gone up to anyone and said I would like to talk. If help was offered I’d take it but I wouldn’t ask for it. I live with my dad and have no idea how well he is coping. He seems ok. He suddenly bursts into tears a few time especially on what would have been their 25th wedding anniversary but I don’t know how he is at work.