I am sorry to read about the death of your mum and about how much you miss her every single day. Nine months is not very long and it is normal and understandable that you are still mourning and grieving for her. Grief is a very personal experience with no rights and wrongs and no time limit. I am pleased you have reached out for support and I hope that others reading this post will share their experiences with you.
Many people tell us that talking can help them to start to process their thoughts and feelings and you are very welcome to continue to share your's with us here, or if you would prefer to chat in real time with a Support Line Officer you can contact us on Freephone 0800 090 2309 or by webchat.
We have some information about grief and its stages which you may want to read here: https://www.mariecurie.org.uk/help/support/bereaved-family-friends
Brigette- Support Line Officer .