Losing mum

Jules64 1 year ago

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I lost my dear dad in 2007, I learnt so much from him, I loved him dearly. He died with us by his side. I stayed strong to look after mum. We were so close, we had all holidays together, every weekend and every Wednesday, we laughed so much and worked tirelessly in the mums garden every weekend. I lost mum suddenly last year from a brain tumour, I nursed her at home for two weeks, she passed away with my brother and I holding her hand, she didn't know she was dying, she wasn't able to talk towards the end. Her last words to me was "can we go to Cornwall now" having returned from hospital to die at home. The last few days and how mum looked when she passed won't fade for me, I seem to be living it all again and again. Wakes me at night now, I think life just doesn't seem to be worth living without her, she was my world. All I do is work and sleep, life has no meaning anymore. I buy a few Christmas presents with mums money every year so it feels like they're from mum. Anyone out there in the same state as myself