2745221102 7 years ago
About a year and a half ago my gran came to stay with my family because she was diagnosed with cancer for a second time. But unlike the first time, her cancer reached stage 4 within weeks and spread all over her body. For six month I watched her battle her cancer and lose. Six months ago she lost her battle. I thought I could cope but I have no one that I can talk to because of various reasons. My mum is coping with her own loss, and the death of my gran also deeply affected my dad. My aunt blames my mum for my gran's relapse and therefore she doesn't speak to us anymore. Our closest family friends are the only real family I have left but they have their own problems since both their mums have dementia. I have tried so hard to work through my grief alone but I can't do it anymore. I can feel that I am changing as a person and not in a good way. I am so sensitive that little family disputes affect me in a major way; I have become shy and quiet and put up a façade for school so I look happy on the outside (I am 15). I also get really bad nightmare about my gran dying and the family issues that I have. I don't know who I can turn to. I feel so alone. I am really sorry to bombard any readers with my feeling but right now I really need so advice.