Have you been in touch with CRUSE bereavement services?? You can go to groups or individual sessions....that might help xxx
My husband john died 2 weeks ago in a hospice with lung & bone cancer as it was a short illness (4months ) we are still in shock & heartbroken .We were together 53yrs m first & only love at 16yrs old xmas has just been a blur as his funeral was on the 23 dec i stayed with my lovely family over xmas and we tired to be strong as john would want us to be .but Im home now and all I do is cry & look for him he was the most loving man and his children and grandchildren adored him so I want to be there for them but I feel like my heart is breaking and cant see my life without him would love some advice to help me get through this pain xx
I am so sorry to read of the death of your husband John. It is very normal for your heart to feel like it is breaking and for you not to be able to envision a life without him. You only had a very short time to try and come to terms with his illness and diagnosis before he died. Many people tell us that they feel physical symptoms on the death of a loved one, but if you are worried about how you are feeling it would be good to discuss with somebody. We have lots of information on coping with grief which you can find here.
People often tell us that it helps to talk to someone about everything that’s happening. Our Freephone Support Line is here for information and emotional support. You can contact us on 0800 090 2309. As we know, this time of year can be particularly difficult for families and friends, so we feel it is important that we are open every day over Christmas and the holiday period. Should you wish to contact us, details of our opening hours can be found on our website at: https://www.mariecurie.org.uk/help/marie-curie-support-line
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